Change

We typically have a love/hate relationship with change. Change is a constant. ESPECIALLY in this head. One moment we're flying high in the things of G-d and the next we're ready to jump off the Hi-Five in rush hour traffic.

I (D-the strong believing one) am an Arthur Burke junkie. A lot of his stuff talks about how we're born with packages. The enemy sets up packages full of ancestral curses and sins all together just waiting. I knew a lady who when looking at her daughter shortly before she was to give birth to her grandchild, saw demons lined all around the girl. They weren't oppressing her or really affecting her so much, but they were preparing for the birth of that baby, ready to attach themselves and set up a lifetime of snares right then.

Another view of the packages, and the most important one is the G-d packages. YES! He gives them too. He's written His plans for us before the foundations of the world. Nothing in our lives takes Him by surprise. He neatly packages us with His gifts, His callings, His destiny for our lives. The plans of the enemy pale in comparison. They cannot really even BE compared.

THE UNFOLDING

The trick is opening the package. For some it is an easy thing, they look for it, they strive for it. For others, its terrifying. I've a friend with a strong prophetic/mercy heart that I know the enemy is terrified of and G-d is getting ready to release. She's never been around the things of the Spirit, so there's a lot that she doesn't understand, she has no idea how packed full of wonderful, good, G-d stuff she is. No one's ever noticed, no one in her life has recognized and called it out. What's wrong with us Christians these days?

When we discover a measure of what G-d has put in us, it makes it more easy to understand our place in His kingdom.

SURRENDER

For anyone who's ever struggled with pride/false pride/worthlessness this is a biggie and I'll tell you why...

In order for us to really step into our place in the Body of Christ, we've got to surrender to the fact that there's something GOOD in us. Many of us don't believe that. Many think its impossible because we're too dirty, done too much, too bad, too stupid to get to the place where G-d can actually use us. This requires a recognition of HIS Spirit placed in us, it requires recognition of beautiful and wonderful things that we normally, in our natural minds can't even begin to process.

As a multiple, this is especially difficult. There's often parts who are 180 degrees from where we are. We have at least 2 with us who've tried to kill us and some just this year and the cutting, the suicidal tendencies and obsessions with death have been a struggle for many years. G-d will deliver them of that, I'm certain because there's a purpose for us to fulfill.

In the last few weeks, G-d has really been messing with me - in a good way and part of it is this whole surrender business. I've been listening to Carol Kornacki's testimony about 100 times and am reminded how G-d can do absolutely anything.

My surrender? G-d's given me an anointing to recognize, call out and activate the gifts and callings within people. I am a prophetic psalmist - not the best voice, not the best pianist by any means, but called and chosen. For me to ADMIT that is huge - may sound funny to anyone else, but it is what it is. When I was young, evil people recognized and tried to take advantage of the seer's gift in me and turn it for evil. They were conditioning me in unholy ways for very unholy purposes.

In the last few weeks G-d's been setting a fire in me, I dunno, maybe it has something to do with my birthday coming up, maybe it has something to do with the fact that we're living in the last days, maybe its because He's tired of us being scattered? I'm not sure, but He's doing it. My prayer is that He will give me grace and help me keep my eyes, hears and heart focused on Him and His purposes, considering eternity in ever thought and action.

Some days, most often when I'm in front, we're doing good - hanging on. The anger is repressed, the suicide and death obsession is repressed S. and R. are somewhere in the background doing whatever in the dark under layers wherever they stay. I'm praying also for S. and R. and whoever else hides under those two dark places. I'm asking Him to shine His light in those places. The P's - the main fronters don't want too see, don't want to acknowledge what was done but are hanging onto what is. They're terrified that tomorrow, we'll slip right back down into some dark place, striving to even WANT to live. No. I don't feel like this time there will be such a striving. Something's changed. Something's different and it's going all through the system.

This is a change that I want, this is a change that everyone sharing this body needs. Even so, come quickly L-rd Jesus!

Wanna change with me?